2015

First and foremost, hello 2015.

2014 was a memorable year.

I haven't change much since then (I guess)

To be frank, 2014 is one of the best year in my life

I've met many new people!

I've lost a few friends too (but I still care about them)

I was heartbroken a few times

Nevertheless, I am happy with the fact that I survived 2014 

2014 was indeed a fun journey, and it marks the end of my teenage life!

Can you believe that? One minute it's your first day of high school & booom now you're 20

20, wow welcome to adulthood 

& I can say that I am not mentally prepared to face any difficult challenges of being an adult just yet!

(like paying your own bills, settling down, financial issues blah blah blah)

but hey here's the good part of being an adult: people will take you more seriously!

anyway

I can say that I'm happy of my current life, although I may have to deal with issues most of the time, but still, I wouldn't trade the world for it.

I am thankful to be blessed with the presence of my friends, what would I do without them?

Thank you Balqis, you were there since day 1, you're a tough chick, you're the backbone of your family and I will always be there for you okay 

Thank you Diyana, honestly I couldn't survive a week without talking to you! thank you for listening to my rants almost everyday, you're the best

Ali and Naqiah, tho we may not always talk to each other, just knw that both of you owns a special place in my heart &&&& I love you guys so much!

and then there's Amar, who I rarely see and talk to, but he's that kind of best friend who you could go weeks without talking to and still be best buds. hihi love you

And guess what, degree life has change me to someone better

and I can't believe that I made lots of new friends here

To Shanaa, god where do I start? haha honestly being close to you was beyond my expectation because we don't talk much at all although we were classmates back in asasi (ikr) (you were saaah annoying) (you still are) but hey, things have changed and now I'm glad that we are! bear with me tau hihi muah ciked 

To Athirah, you are so so so so so so nice to me and I feel bad because I used a lot of your stuff :( haha and honestly I am lucky to be one of yr kawan tercayang(ke I yang syok sendiri ni beb) and all I could offer is my sincere friendship hehehehe

To Athirah Diyana (gawd banyaknya athirah) I am happy that we met during Dapur Srikandi and thnk you for starting the conversation! keep it with the positive vibes & thnk you for being my friend hihi

To Nashwa, wey hang tau dak hang la manusia paling loqlaq pernah aku jumpa tapi aku nak hang tau yang aku sayang gila kat ang sebab dengan hang ja aku takyah jet jet cakap kl macam orang lain jadi roommate aku smpai bila bila tau, boleh kita bising sampai kakak sebelah marah hihi

To my friends in Universiti Malaya 

Afiq, paan, syapiq, lysa, pija, sha, shyra, shira, scha, brader jai, danny, aqil, my tesl classmates,  and semua yang dalam penggerak mahasiswa & srikandi malaya, u guys are the best! my life in UM would suck tau without all of you :)

and all of my friends, no matter where you are, especially to those who are close to me, here's to another year of friendship xx may it last.

Dah I malas nak cakap pepanjang bye

trust

Trusting someone is like rolling a dice; you're putting a high hope in every chance that you get. Sometimes it may seems like luck is not by yourself.

But can you really blame luck?

Because when you roll the dice, you're putting yourself in a risk. You're gambling with your own fate and destiny. 

Be careful when you start trusting someone, because you never knew what's going to happen. You can't predict what's going to happen the next day, or the next 5 years.
Trusting someone means that you have trusted yourself enough to gamble yourself.

You may take the risk if you want to.


Also.


If someone trust you, do your best to keep that trust. It's not easy to have someone's trust so try not to let stupid mistakes take the trust away from you.

You'll do your best if you care enough. :-)

from lendu with love

Now that everyone has their own path, I must say.. I miss the old good old times.
Looking back at my foundation years in UiTM Lendu, it's fair for me to say that I miss such a beautiful sight and experience.

I miss my friends most.

I miss all of our fights, laughters and tears.

Somehow, during my foundation year, I have learn to be more appreaciative and thankful to be blessed with wonderful companions. Although I am not able to see them everyday like I used to anymore, it's fine with me. I'm alright. I miss all of them.

Especially;

Diyana Afiqah. How we became ultimate partners is questionable. Why? Because I didn't like her when I first saw her, mainly because she gave this killer-stare whenever I caught a glimpse of her face. And then I thought to myself, "hey, shes something" and I've always think that she is beautiful, though she thinks otherwise. We became close because we spend many times together and even closer when I started sharing problems with her. I never thought I could meet anyone like her. She's something unique. And yes I miss her, teribbly. (And no, this post is not for you. A special one is coming) :)

Naqiah. At first sight, you'd mistaken her for someone native because she doesn't look malay, at all. She looks Jamaican, with her tanned skin and curly short hair with a bit of a purple dye. Gorgeous, just gorgeous. We are not that close when we were in the first semester but somehow we managed to find our own way. She is good with advices, really. I miss her, and that face she makes when she's high. Just kidding. No. Really. That face, Naqiah, you know it.

Illa Ali. First thing first, he used to wear all red to class. Literally. When I first saw him during class, I have always think of him as a nerd who likes anime, I even asked him to draw a cartoon for me in class. Ali is the best brother you could ever ask for. He has the warmest hugs and he always get more hot guys than the rest of us did. Turns out this "nerd" I met in class has become someone.. hot. Yes I said it, Ali. He even knows my boyfriend first before I did!

Nur Syauqina. This girl has the prettiest smile and the silkiest hair, ever. She became my room mate for the rest of the foundation year (try imagine dealing with annoying jiha who's phone alarm is so loud in the morning). I wonder what she is doing right now.. tho I talk to her almost everyday, I still miss her. Qina, if you are reading this, I'm sorry for finishing your snacks and food back in our room...... Hihi.

'Izzah. To be honest, one thing I like about 'Izzah is the fact that she is a loyal lover. She still in love with the same guy when I first met her till today, even though they don't see eye to eye anymore. That's the best quality in her, loyalty. I remember buying her a cake on her birthday and surprised her back in our room and too bad we couldn't do the same thing this year, kan? I'll hope that if we ever meet again, you'll gain extra weight. Hihi

Aliya Natasya. This girl is head over heels in love with her fiancee and they are the proof that long distance relationship actually works. I hope that we talk more often after this because I miss making fun of the way she spoke in Bahasa. (yea her bahasa is not that good) but still, you're the best, Aliya! I hope that I will be there when you're pregnant with turkish babies. Hihi

It kills me when I miss you guys.
But what can I do?
Wait till September, and we'll meet again. :-)

running away

I am caught in this big mess, in which I have no options, and to make it worse, I have no clue how am I supposed to get up to fix this mess. 

It's hard dealing with options. Sometimes, it seems like choosing the best is the solution, but in reality, making a decision means that you are ready to take responsibility of the consequences that may happen in the future.

Although, at times, running away from all of your problems seems to be the easiest solution, yet. But,  for how long are you going to run away from your problems? Your problems are like your shadows, they are attached with you. No matter how hard you try to escape, they'll keep hunting you.

So do me a favour, and stop running away from your problems.